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TanSzeXuanClaire.
17061997 Attatched to CharmaineYongSzeYa Loved by Caimei♥, Jessel, Charmaine, Fion, SweeKee, Jingmin, Shayne and a lot a lot:P currently studying in Zhenghua Sec Wants : freedom! My Sisters!♥ A simple life. Love me if not leave me and stop the hurt you're giving me(: love my friends as much as they love me. Love is like a rainbow , if a person and stay by ur side and love you , care for you and go through everything with you and accept wadever shit you gave that person.That person wil be the one there for you when you need someone the most and cherish that person because you will never know when that person is gonna leave you♥."
CharmaineYongSzeYah
Attatched to CharmaineYongSzeYah♥ 07041995 Anniversary on 7th. Married to her on 07062010♥ Whenever we have anything we dun wanna share or dun dare to share with others, we will turn to each other. We always have the trust in each other and understands each other's feelings well. We understand each other well and know why we do certain things in order not to get any hurt. We cherish each other, we will always lend a shoulder to each other
LimCaiMei
Baby Girl♥ 30061997 We always tell each other our deep dark secret to each other and keep those secrets well , we promise not to reveal anything out (: We always love each other and promise that we wun be apart no matter what happens(: We always confide into each other when you dun dare to tell others what we think . We always comment on each otehr when we think that we ain't doing the right thing . I love you♥
OliviaHauXinYun
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Came from this girl♥ 27051997 Serangoon Sec She gave birth to me,she always give me a big big scolding from her whenever i do smth wrong.. I always share my things with her . Although we ain't as close as last time but i still love her ,I will always cherish her , she treats me like her own♥ I will always lend a listening ear to her whenever she needs someone to turn to♥
ChuSweeKee
Sista(; 28021997 She's hyper, i knew her from the first day of sec sch, we share secrets and keep it to ourselves. We have fun together , we laugh together , we play together and had a lot fo our first times together . She's being loved by Jingminnie and me♥
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Saturday, April 30, 2011, 9:29 PM
babyy...
Laogong.. I wanna give up, I really wann to.. Yet, pathetically, I'm here now crying without you. Those forgotten promises. Those pain you gave me is really unbearable, I tried, I tried not to care about you so much alrd. But, I can't. I kept giving you chances again and again, yet you seemed to take it for granted. In the past, we were doing fine. And, I dunno why, from 20.03.2011, you started treating me colder and colder. I thought you were change, I gave you more than what I should. I forgive you like hell. But now, we quarrel, you scold me "ccb, smlj, knn". You dun treat me like that in the past. You changed, so much. I had enough, there's always a limit to my tolerance. I'm so tired, so drained. Whenever I need a friend, I dunno who to turn to.. When I need you, where are you? You're out there with your friends playing? How about me? hah! At home crying like shit, like fuck, hoping just for your text, your call. Now, quarreling like fuck. I'm so tired of all this shit. I .. I wanna end my life. I feel so meaningless. I'm always living for th sake that I love someone. I've no aim, I've nothing, I only have you yet you're treating me like ... Toy? When you dun have your friends, you come and look for me. When you have them, I'm chunked aside. I've never ever treat you like that before. Do I really deserve all this? I tried to smile, but I'm not genuinely happy. I dun wann you to be hurt or what again, whenever you're outside, I'm so worried. Worried that one day I can't see you again, worried that something happen to you and I dunno about it. I find myself so stupid for caring so much for a person. But.. I'm tired. Maybe you deserve better. All I do is only to make you lose all your friends, to make you dulan. Maybe, you'll be able to find a better girl than me.. It's all my heartfelt words. I'm so sorry about everything. I love you.. Labels: You hurt me so much.. I'm sorry.. 10:40 AM
Babyy, I wished everything will be better.
 I'm so afraid, afraid to lose you, afraid to love you, afraid to even trust you.. This week, I'm so ... I dunno what's that feeling, mixed feelings I guess. Detention-ed 3 days in a row. My studies dropping like fuck, next week is exams, I've to concentrateeee!!!! ): Someone, please, MOTIVATE ME ): Andand, I patched with RachaelDaughterr(: Teehees (: QihannLaogong, Alternate days you treat me well. What's this?! ): Sometimes, I'll miss those times when we were having fun, when you pamper me, when you cheer me up by your little actions. Nowadays, it's more like when you're bored or when you have no one to turn to then you look for me, what makes me happy was, yesterday night, you called me using ____'s phone, asking me to go sleep first, blablabla~ Although it's just.. A call? I still appreciate it a lot.. Because I'm soft-hearted, I'm easily bullied, my heart gets shattered easily by you as well. I really wish we could be together every single second.. I found out, sadly, we lost trust in each other.. I love you ... NutNutIsLoved, Okay, I dunno how to address you in my bloggg! :X Cheer upupupupup okie? Please, dun be sad anymore. She's not worth, I swear. You deserve a lot a lot better than how she's treating you now. It pains us to see you so hurt. Pick yourself up, if you fall, we'll hold onto you, not allowing you to fall (: CaimeiDearest, we're always for for you. Don't have to hide how you feel. Sometimes, I know you're hiding, just that I dun say because I know you wann hide from everything, to avoid everything. Exams are coming, jiayou okie? (: Loves. (: RachaelDaughter, Hellohellohello, I know we patch. Woolala~~ Dun think too much okie? Miss Ang still love you derh laa. Aiyohh, so sensitive horh you. Nvm, mummy sayang ni (: Let th bygones be th bygones okay? Ystd, you saw my love letter, you jitao smile, so happy (: I like to see you all smile, it makes my day (: Loves (: CharmaineLaopo, heheh! (: Glad that you're happy with himm! :D Had a great chat with you yesterday also :D Loves. (: FionMummy, JIAYOU, You're always very strong, you can make it through this time. You can do it. Loves. (: ShaunKorkor, I'm so sorry for all th troubles I've caused. And thankyou for always being here for me (: heheh(: Labels: truth hurts. Thursday, April 28, 2011, 9:29 PM
Lost.
 Babyy, this post is dedicated to you (: Yes, today I really said out everything I kept in my heart for such a long time. It really pains me when I found out all those truth. Yesterday when you picked up the call from her phone, I was deceiving myself. I told myself it wasn't you when clearly, it is. I know, it's you, I kept lying to myself repeatedly. You told lies all over again. I thought you won't but you actually did. I tried to keep myself occupied so that I won't think of all those. I even told myself, it's okay, but i didn't know I'll hide at the stairs and cry. I feel like a stupid. When no one cares, I've to be alone. It's unlike last time, you'll give me uncondition care, but now, I'm here crying like an idiot for you. I really gave you chances to change. Just as I really wanted to trust you, you broke the trust. I really tried to cast the past aside yet you repeat it again. I'm so confused, I dunno what to do, I dunno what to say. Although I'm disheartened and hurt, I chose to give you another chance. Please. Stop all this things that hurt me. I really need you a lot a lot. It's just a small request, not to lie to me, is it so hard. Anyways, whenever I'm physically with you, I'm always very happy, you never fail to make me laugh but whenever I'm not with you, everything turned otherwise. I really hope things will be better in no time. I really dun wann to quarrel, I wann use to be as sweet as before because I can't let you go. I dunno how to live without you. You're important to me. I realised, I always wanna avoid everything. Because I dun wann quarrel with you but I can't take it anymore. Sorry, I love you.Labels: I dun wanna live without you. Wednesday, April 27, 2011, 7:30 PM
Disappointments.
Again and again disappointments, I really tried to smile today, I really tried. ): But sadly, I only wann th people by my side to be happy even if, I'm not. It's alright if I'm not okay now, I'm strong I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I will be! ): But, I wonder why am I so affected over you. Can you please, dun mean so much to be. I'll be tired for caring so much. I dun wanna love someone so much anymore. Those lies, really pains me. Why am I always kept in the dark. We once promised, no lies between us, but, why is all this happening? Please, dun lie anymore. It hurts. I rather to be hurt by the truth than to be kept in the lies and thought that I'm actually happy when I dunno what you're doing behind my back. I wann to be happy with you without lies, can we? ): Promises broken and broken again.. What's next? ): I hate myself for caring so much.Love, Lies, Hurt, Disheartened, Shattered, Lost. And the cycles goes on. Tuesday, April 26, 2011, 10:53 PM
No one is perfect, including myself.
 Is he able to do it? No , he won't be , but I still love him as much no matter what happens. Okay, basically, today, sch-ed as usual. For th first time, after sch, Babyy was outsideee! (: Aww (: Heheh. Settle finish some stuff, proceeded back to sch for peer tutoring. Boring much. Then headed home for my nap! Tireddd! Charmaine laopo, Kiankeong, WeiguangKorkor & QihannLaogong came my house, woohoo~ Okie, they all played mahjong with my brother and i was using com with Laogong! :D I went bath and he's all alone! Sorry uhh laogong ): Okie, then charmaine went to find her beloved Boyf! ): Okay, they dota lorrr. I go sleep. Sleep lerr wake up i do work, I revise! Muahaha! Then went ah ma's house for dinner! Sian die! I wanna pei himm! Okay, then I rushed my dad to come homeee. Pei him awhile only lorr ): Then he went back lerr. I think now he's with Kiankeong. Hope everything will be fine for him ): I miss you badly ): It's less than 2 hours. It's alrd 23:45, hope he'll be home soon and rest well. QihannLaogong, my dearest one and only, thank you for today. For accompanying me for 8 hours, although never accompany, keep pangseh but I still appreciate the effort you put in to be at my house when you can be out there with your other friends. I love the way you are now.(: Thank you for changing for me. You're my life.(: I really did a very big impact on me. And, I've never knew someone could actually did that. I love your accompany always, you never fail to make me laugh, I wished, you're always by my side. (: Thank you for every single thing you did.(: I'm soooooooooo happy, I feel very blessed. I always wonder, what will i become without you. I got no answer because I dun wanna leave you anymore.. I love you. Caimeidearest, babe, I know it's gonna be hard for you now, I know. Dun give up, I'm always here for you. Dun think too much, anything give me a text or what, I'll reply asap derhh. Loves. (: CharmaineLaopo, seemed like you're damn happy nowadays and kinda neglect studies alrd horh? Tsk, concentrate, exams are cominggggg! Take careeee, loves(: Fionmummy, thanks for always always being with me through all those hard times, offering your time, your everything. Thanks mummy! ChamayneSista, I know you're now in a dilemma, I'm always here for you okie? Dun think too much, anything can text me uhh (: loves. Labels: can make me smile (:, Only you Friday, April 22, 2011, 5:33 PM
Babyy, I relised, how much you meant to me.
 Afraid will be gone when you're here for me. We have to remember our promise - I'll never let go of you again, holding your hands tight (: This approximately 2 weeks haven't been a great one. Alrd consecutive 3 days i quarrelled wih my mummy! ): Shit her. Say those shitty things. Hateeeeeee laaaaaa! Anyways. Just now Dylan, Jonathan & Shimin came my house at around 11.30, did homework tgt (: And, QihanBabyy came to join us at 12. He was using commmmmm! (: Heheh! So nice of him, he know I sorethroat and flu then he come and pei wo (: Aww (: love him ttm laa (: Flu & sore throat for i dunno how many day alrd lorr ): Anyways, today babyy ish so sweeettttt! Hope we'll remain like that. Muahahahahaha (: Trust is th key, both of us agreedddddd(: Had a fun day laughing and bitching about people with themm(: Hahah! (: That silly boyfriend of mine so cute! (: Omg! Thanks for making my day! I love you babyy (: Andand, I've to buck up on my studies. QihannLaogong, Muahahahaha! There will always be rainbow after th rain. The first time I agreed with this phrase okay! heheh! Anyways, babyy uhh. Thanks for being so sweet towards me early in the morning. You brighten me uppp! If I'm without you, I dunno how I'd be (: Explaining the trust and love between us is important. You're even being very understanding towards me. Early in th morning, I smiled like a SiaoZharBo! (: You laa (: All your fault! :P Okok, joking alrights? (: You see this, you're gonna say "Ya la , you wear shite, my fault. Your birthday on 17 june, my fault " Blahblah~ Heheh! So cute horh you! I love you being by my side. Because only you can make me laugh and smile like an idiot.I may be out with other guys at times, but you never failed to be on my mind. Although I get jealous easily, it's because I really care. And, I can't help but to care. I've to accept how you are. Because you're my one and only. I dunno how to live without you, I'll be soffocating without your presence. I need you, most importantly , I love you very muchiee. (: heheh! :D CharmaineLaopo, I know you got him very happy nah ! (: I like to see ya like that. Must be happy as always (: Your loudloud laughter (: hehe(: Loves. (: CaimeiBaby, I know you ain't alright now. I hope this post will let you feel tiny tiny better. I know you're suffocating, I know you ain't feeling good. I'll be by your side when you fall. Loving someone is not easy. In sch, I know it hurts, I know it's heartbreaking. I know you're stabbed with millions of knifes and your heart is shattered into millions of pieces. I went through all those. I know the feeling of getting so much hurt at a go. I know you're breaking down soon. I'll always be here to help you up, to pick the broken pieces back into the original place it came from. I know it's hurting too much now , I know this time is difficult. You fell, yes I know. I know you can't stand up right in time, right now. But, I'll be here, grab onto my hand. I'll not ensure you to fall again. Loves. (: FionMummy, I know you're very confused, very upset about everything and you don't know what you gonna do. Step by step. Slowly. You can do it mummy. I know you're strong. You hold onto me when I fell, I'll hold onto you when you fall as well. I'll always be here mummy. Anything call or text me. Loves (: DylanKorkor, Thanks for everything and even be friends with me (: Thanks for making my day fun as well! :D Shimin and Jonathan, Thanks uhh! (: Labels: and allow th sunshine to shine on you (:, Let th shadow cast behind you Sunday, April 10, 2011, 10:01 PM
Babyy don't leave me again~ (:
 Our promise - I'll never let go of your hands ever again. (: OMGOMGOMG! Okay, I patched with NGQIHANLAOGONG! (: I'll never leave himmm! Muahahaha(: ILOVEHIMILOVEHIM! :D We can't live without each other. He told me that. He say he feel empty without me! :D Like meeee~ Muahahaha:D OMGGGGGGG. So damn high you mei you! :D Love himmmmmmmm ttm! :D Okay, hmm, this few weeks haven't ben a great one ): But, it's all over, I'm glad he's by my side now too (: And, thanks brothers, sisters, friends for always being there for me !!(: And, thanks Dylan for lending me ur spare phone uhh if not I can't contact people especially himmm! :D I'll make the upcoming weeks a better one! (: QihannLaogong, teehees (: Remember our promise uhh. If you let go of me again, you'll dieee! :P Won't laa, bu she de! :P Opps:X Okay, I'm overly highhh, I miss you when you're away okayy! I love you nahh! You promise derh uhh, will change ur attitude, I will also, you must also okayy! I have faith & confidence you cann(: I can't leave without you, I won't let go of ur hands anymore unless you're unfaithful to me!! Opps:X Dun uhh! I trust you. You two days never sleep alrd sure damn tired one, must sleep well uhh! I love you oh! :D CaimeiDearest & CharmaineLaopo, thanks for always being by my side uhh sisters! (: OMGOMG! I love you all ttm laa(: Always give me wonderful advices, love & care for me sososososo much, I really aprreciate it! (: Anways, when you all need me, I'll always be here, be it, wanna rant or wann cry or very happy, I'll always be here for you (: My shoulders will always be here for you. My high-ness will always be prepared when you wanna get high with mee(: JiayiSweetie , Please be happier, remember, I'm here uhh(: WenXue as well. Dun sad alrd (: Drop me a text if needed. Dun think too much. (: Loves(: Shayne06032011, Muahahah! Must happy uh you! Lovelove(: hehehe:D Anything can text me derhs (: Shaunkorkor , thanks for always being there being me all sorts of advices, hearing me cry, cheering me up! (: I really cherish you as my brother (: teehees (: Jiayou uhh! Dun always so pissed. Meimei will be here for you as well (: Dylankorkor, OMGOMG! Thanks for the phoneeeeeee~! Wooohooo!(: THANKSTHANKS :D I'm a girl who can't live without you. You made me dunno how to love others when took my heart , shattered it into millions of pieces , scattered all around the places we went, but now, you're picking it up and placing all this bit & pieces up ; make this girl smile genuinely again. She hopes you won't disappoint her, she thought of all these again and again when you asked for a chance, made the most important decision to give you one more chance to change. She allow you to hold her hands because she believe you'll never let go of hers. She will accept and change for you too 'cause she love you and she know you're her everything, her one & only. She'll never let you go again. I shall end off with I LOVE YOU LAOGONG~! :D Labels: alwayswillbe(:, IloveyouNgQiHannLaogong |