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TanSzeXuanClaire.

17061997
Attatched to CharmaineYongSzeYa
Loved by Caimei♥, Jessel, Charmaine, Fion, SweeKee, Jingmin, Shayne and a lot a lot:P
currently studying in Zhenghua Sec
Wants :
freedom!
My Sisters!♥
A simple life.

Love me if not leave me and stop the hurt you're giving me(:
love my friends as much as they love me.


Love is like a rainbow , if a person and stay by ur side and love you , care for you and go through everything with you and accept wadever shit you gave that person.That person wil be the one there for you when you need someone the most and cherish that person because you will never know when that person is gonna leave you♥."

CharmaineYongSzeYah

Attatched to CharmaineYongSzeYah♥
07041995
Anniversary on 7th. Married to her on 07062010♥
Whenever we have anything we dun wanna share or dun dare to share with others, we will turn to each other. We always have the trust in each other and understands each other's feelings well. We understand each other well and know why we do certain things in order not to get any hurt. We cherish each other, we will always lend a shoulder to each other

LimCaiMei

Baby Girl♥
30061997
We always tell each other our deep dark secret to each other and keep those secrets well , we promise not to reveal anything out (: We always love each other and promise that we wun be apart no matter what happens(: We always confide into each other when you dun dare to tell others what we think . We always comment on each otehr when we think that we ain't doing the right thing . I love you♥

OliviaHauXinYun

Came from this girl♥
27051997
Serangoon Sec
She gave birth to me,she always give me a big big scolding from her whenever i do smth wrong.. I always share my things with her . Although we ain't as close as last time but i still love her ,I will always cherish her , she treats me like her own♥ I will always lend a listening ear to her whenever she needs someone to turn to♥

ChuSweeKee

Sista(;
28021997
She's hyper, i knew her from the first day of sec sch, we share secrets and keep it to ourselves. We have fun together , we laugh together , we play together and had a lot fo our first times together . She's being loved by Jingminnie and me♥

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Friday, October 29, 2010, 10:42 PM
i'm so tired ... :(


Coz' after i know you , there's a trumandoous change in me , worrying bout this and that .. :(
Hmm , rotted at home today :( Baby nv text me at all till evening(: Went to sch in the morning to hand in some stupid form! Then home-d to rot. Ryan and boy came . He's name is boy! Damn cute right? Hahas -.- Then went to slack with them and "shuaige" . Then went greenridge , found with my small little kitten(: hehe^^ Fed her with food but she dun wan :( Then home-d with my small tiny kitten that's named "scoy" coz' there's a reason(: hehe^^ Not telling :P Then ate at Bukit batok , was shag half way :( Then lahlahlah~ Baby cheered me up(: It's him who made me shag too , opps:P blahblah , homed , use com now is off to bed(: Tmr have to meet Ms Ang :(
Baby , thanks for telling me all those , i dun mean to be so unreasonable too . I'm sorry but i'm too afraid , too afraid to lose you. I shouldn't talk as if you're mine , i should treat you more like a normal friend perhaps. As each day pass , i begin to love you more and more. I'm really very sorry . I know in ur heart , you love me and i should be contented(: I should be , i must be (; First night we didn't chat :( I know you're tired coz' of ur swim , it's alright . I shall be more understanding and let you do those things you wanna do . I'm sorry for caring so much , i love you...
"shuaige" , thanks for helping me with a kitten , keeping the kitten with you at night and brightened my day up , thanks for making me happy eh (: Thanks everything:D You're one of the best friend i ever met , thank god i met you if not my life will be screwed and thanks for always being my listening ear(: You'll always be my friend and you'll always have my support for everything although i know you dun need it(:

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Thursday, October 28, 2010, 11:59 PM
suckie suckie suckieeeee~:(


You're the one and only in my mind & heart (:
Went to sch with mum for PTM , she met Ms Tay first , nth much happened . After that she meet my mum , that miss ang make till I cry , make till my mum cry :( Assembly , i unpin my hair then miss ang SUDDENLY appeared , she ask me walk i nthe assembly with her. -.- I so paiseh lo , stood with her.Then i slacked in sch till ard 10 plus then i go report to that Ms ang coz i wanna see that stupid boiii! (: i see him i happy alr(: He brighten my world up(:Then waited for Miss Ang till ard 11 plus , she was talking to Charmaine's mum then after she talk finish , she dun care me siah! Wtf ! Thanks Karen for waiting for me(: Then home-d , text , slept , eat, text , no life-.- I need to finish my assesments before i can go out. Fine ! First say can fail 3 , okay , i only failed 3. very good liao lorh! Kb. Fuck my life seriously!
When tears start from the left eye ,
means it hurts.
When tears start from the right eye ,
means it means happiness.
And my tears always start from the left:(
But the saddest thing is you ain't with me..:'(
it's not easy to overcome everything myself.. :(
ShuanChongYiKeanFather-in-law , i'm sorry for wad i've said today :( I really very very shag today yet i can't show it out .. You should know wad happen .. I'm sorrrrriiiiiiieeeeee~ And thanks for wadever you've done(: Loveees (:

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7:34 PM
To my dearest SeanGohWeiDe (:

I know it's gonna be hard on you but then you have to know i will always be with you(:


I know this few weeks / days you've been very tired , under a lot of stress and worries bout this and that .. I know there is a lot of things that happened this month. I jus wanna let you know that i will always be here for you under every circumstances , i wun leave you . You were with me when i needed you. I dunno if you need me now but i will always with you. Life's gonna be hard ,there will be a lot obstacles we have to overcome in life , jus take it as one of the obstacles in life. I will be here to overcome every obstacle you go through until the day you dun wan me too. I will always accompany you and lend you my listening ear.(:

It's a promise i make , i wun do anything behind ur back , i will always be truthful to you. I hope you can be truthful to me too . I dun wan you to keep anything from me , i dun wan you to wear a mask infront of me , i wan you to be urself coz' i will love you for who u are. There's a lot of things beyond our control but there's small little things that you can do for urself . You should know a lot of people care for you in a different way and they also love you in a different way (: Do wad you think it's best for you and dun regret ur choice(:
Love you loads:D

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Wednesday, October 27, 2010, 6:48 PM
It's hard not to get jealous...

Falling for you is a mistake i made but i dun regret this mistake coz' i will never forget how you made me smile for no reason(:


On the 25 Oct which is monday , went out for movie with Yachin , DaBenDanCharmaine and Aaliyah. Then went to BPCC to see Hanping & Jacob play bball . Actually wanted to play but so many people , damn paiseh one.. Someone stalked me home after that , scare me out of my life! On Lrt , he keep looklook lidat , then i alighted. I text DaBenDanCharmaine , then she say he alighted at Jelapang , i look back horh , then his face beside mine! Wtf! Then i called YaChin when i found out he following me. Then he actually wanted to take lift with me then i walk out to Greenridge then he follow , he ask " Can i be friends with you? " Then i "err..errr...errr.. " very long then i shook my head , then he gave his pitiful eyes and say " jus friends oni" Stupid-.- Then i dun care , i walk away . Hehe^^ HE talked to me on msn and got my no. And i used " please dun text me anymore , i got bf ." to reject him(: Hehe^^ Had fun with them though but i dun wanna walk home alone anymore , it's so scary:(
Today ,SeanGoh as promised ,he came to sch but he came late. Luckily , today de assembly started later if not he need to serve detention alr lo. LOL . Saw him at ramp coz' i left my pink dolphin there . I somehow ignored him then he ignore me back. :(Then assemble-d , luckily i never go up . i found someone to replace me (: Thanks Celine:D SeanGoh went up to represent 3N2(; Hehe^^ he did well(: His speech was cute coz' of his voice:P Then lesson-ed. So boring~ I tot that SeanGoh angry siah ,make me so worried . After sch ,Miss Tay leaving sch , Miss Michelle Lee bought pizza for us (:Thanks a lot (:I'm gonna miss Miss Tay Ling Ling man~! :( Wanted to go blueroom but not open , then DaBenDan Charmaine , Karen & ShanLe sat at canteen chatchat(: Then that Doreamon dunno die till where. SeanGoh went to join us afterwards(: hehe^^ Was happy yet a little jealous.. Nvmnvm , then saw doreamon at ard 3.15 then went blueroom . We use phone at canteen only mahhhhhhh , Wad's wrong? Siaosiao. Hahahahahaha(; Meet Doreamon , talk awhile then went home. Watch tv and texted people . As usual~ No life siah me. Then now blogging and texting lorh(:
Claire tan sze xuan , it's irritating when i get jealous over small tiny little things you do . It's silly of me . I know in your heart , the one you love is me , this is enough , stop asking for more , be contented , be happy that he treats you so nice and even care for you. Jealous for wad ? You have to trust him more since he trust me so much.. Trust is the key in love . People say it's normal to get jealous and it's hard not to when you see the guy you like to be so close with a girl . Can i ask why are you so close to girls even infront of me? I know behind my back , you're even closer but wad can i do? All i can is to accept you for who you are and how you behave. Who ask me to chose you , who ask me to chose to love you so much . hehe^^ No matter wad , i wun leave you unless you wan me to , that one i have no choice:( I love you baby~(: I will try my best not to get jealous and care so much bout you.:'( It's really very difficult , i swear.

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Saturday, October 23, 2010, 10:37 PM
Pissed off-.-





You're someone whom i need in my life (: I love the way you are(:




Dun feel like posting today . Jus roted at home:( Texting and all , in a weeks time , i send 4000 msges , very scary siahhh! LOL.



I dun like to wait for you text , i dun like to wait for you call :'( Humph! :(
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Friday, October 22, 2010, 11:10 PM
pissed -.-

My last breath to just to say that 3 words , i love you.


Sorry readers , i didn't write for the past 2 days(: Kinda a lot of things happened today~ LOL. Went to sch as usual , had a stupid talk with that HCL teacher then RECESS! Hehe^^ Went to recess happily yet i saw some disgusting freak , it diao me you know? Wtf , i text her she say i joker worh , then i ask wad? Then it nv reply .. Hum? LOL. Make me laugh oni. Then had lessons .Aww , miss Tay is going off , all of us will miss her i guess (: Then went to report with Karen & Charmaine , Otw , we saw Xinyi & Nicholas . Talk for awhile lorh . Then she say charmaine and i need to report at 2.30. Sian nah. I was released at ard 4 , went home , call her. But then Charmaine need stay there. I sayang my laopo :'( Then rotted and chatted with my dearest:D:D:D:D:D Then he need to kup due to some reason , then ate KFC , use com , text-ed ppl. So boring~ My dearest and i text, sweet sweet then SUDDENLY he no reply :( I hope he will call me later.. :( Waiting for his msg , waiting for his call :'(

My dearest , i dunno why , now rely on you a lot siahh , hope you wun leave me one day like how others did . I know you are that kind have friends dun care girl friend that kind , i trying to accept the fact that you're like that but it's hard. I'm a girl who can neglect friends coz' of the guy i like de mah then i expect the guy to be the same but then since you're like that , i shall accept it. Nan ren bu huai nu ren bu ai :'( I love you (: I hope i will receive ur calls or texts soon , kinda pissed , always waiting for ur texts and calls , it's kinda irritating sometimes.

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Tuesday, October 19, 2010, 6:39 PM
ShagShagShag~

But It's so scary that i really shed tears over and over again.

Didn't post ystd coz' really very shag. Then today also. Took back all the papers , took back 8 papers , i got 4 fail , english , Geography , Science and Higher Chinese. haizxc . Miss Ang say retain . Okay , wadever~ Today i was over sensitive , i saw my baby with another girl then i think a lot. Then go through exam papers. Blahblahblah~ SHAG LAH! then whoa. My family like falling apart alr. Dun wish to elaborate . I need my baby yet he isn't with me , i feel so neglected perhaps?

Baby , sorry for being so over sensitive and so angry today . I wanna talk it out with you but i dunno how to . I dunno how to face you also :( Sorry uh , today very disappointed and shag:(I love you.


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Sunday, October 17, 2010, 7:33 PM
It have been really tiring... :(

My silly girl and i(:


It have been a tiring day . Shagshagshag~ First , went to mummy's Marina suare that shop for meeting. Wahlao eh . Sian ttm . I give my mum respect , nv text worhhhhh. Then went for another meeting. whoa.. Sit there zhuo bo. Then i text text text lorh , i bo chup liao . Then sit there , so hot man . I'm getting sick~ Headache and all :( Then went back to Hougang for lunch with gongong , ah yi and my uncle , hope that he will be fine soon soon (: Then went to buy some fabric for i dunno wad. Wahlao eh . Run here and there , i very tired siahhhhhh~ ! Went to Kopitiam , i saw "him" , no face to see him lahhhhhhhhhh! Shagshagshag~ haizxc . Now homed (; Likea finally~ Yay~ Gonna bath then wait for 9 to call my dearest baby :) Tired~ :'(

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Saturday, October 16, 2010, 8:51 PM
i miss you...


I'm sure that i've been yearning for you all day and night :(

Sorry , having mood swing today , dun feel like posting much:( Overall is staying at home the whole day , and it's boring!:( I text the whole day too(: LOL. I'm waiting for my dirty boi's reply :( He bo reply one :( I wonder wad he doing siahhh.

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Friday, October 15, 2010, 10:37 PM
Had fun with CharmaineDaBenDan , YaChinDaughterr , Joey!(:

First , I would like to announce that my phone is returned but cannot bring to sch-.- And cannot use after 10. Wahlao! I feel so restricted siah! Nvm lah . At i have it . Thanks mummy:D Second , i open my blog again(:


Woke up at ard 8 then , 1st thing was to check if mummy gave me my sim card , BUT SHE NEVER GIVE ME! Super irritated siah! I call her and scold her like EARLY IN HE MORNING. Hahas. Watch tv and all. Then , CharmaineDaBenDan , YaChinDaughterr , Joey came at ard 12 , i was still bathing:D Hahas. MUMMY CAME BACK JUST TO RETURN MY PHONE(: AWWW! THANKS MUMMY!(: (;Went to Fajar for brunch , , met Kenneth , KokZhong and my beloved RONALDLEE! (: Then wahlao , the playground very hot siah , then homed with them . Sat in the aircon room for ard 45mins.


SMILE!(:


Talking then i snapped a picture of her(:

Siansian look (:
Then headed to YaChin's house(:


Went to pertir , YaChin de house there(: Her neighbour soooo cute!(:

Both of them are twins and it's born on national day!(:

Awwwwww~ So sweeet horh?



Charmaine and Sufian's sister(:



hehe^^ I got PIMPLE on my CHEEK
At the playground(:

Cute cute cute!(:
See my right check! THREE PIMPLES!:( But she's soooooo adorable!(:

Went to BPP afterwards , saw meldrick(: Then went with YaChin and Charmaine to buy some food(: And went we go to the washroom , MY HANDPHONE DROPPED INTO THE TOILET BOWL! Luckily , i haven weewee yet(: Hehe^^ .YaChin met her sister and went home. Headed home with Charmaine , walk home from BPP leyyy. But in between her mum called and ask her go home(: Nvmnvm , had a great day with them anyways(: Love them ttm. Thanks for giving me such a great day!(: Went home , ate those yummy food , VERY FULL! Chatted with my dearest SeanGohWeiDe on the phone. He seemed tired after a long day for the probation thingy. Sayang him lah . He still need to do his art. Make people worry for him only. People xin tongtong alr:(Then went Kranji for dinner. *yawns* -homed- Smsed my dearest(: Tell me i'm sleeping and sayang him. Jiayou for ur art!:D I know he's very tired. Haizxc. But then horh , he tmr busy leyyy . Siannnnn~ Dun wan him so tired siah , people will heart pain one:(Shall go and bath then to my beauty sleep , of 'cause , i will dream of my dearest(: Shall end here , blogging tmr(:
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Thursday, October 14, 2010, 12:22 PM
bored:(

Life will only be wonderful with the prescence of you (:


Rotting at home now~ I wonder why i nv go out , i waiting for people to jio me out. But aiyahs, i no mood to go out lah . Woke up at 7 then lie to on the bed till 8. I asked mummy for my sim card , she refuse to give. She gave excuses like i will use it in sch and have a sms war. Make me sibeh pek cek with her only. She broke her promise still dare talk so loud ! Then went for Mee Hoon Kuey at bangkit with jie jie and papa.. Went home to rot~ Really rotting. Very stupid u know? Freaking bored and pissed the whole day . I wan my phone to sms~ Wahlao eh! Ard 2 plus my cousin came , then 4 she went home. Life without sch is boring~ Sch please start sooon~


I believe everything changed for a reason
Everyone change because they will learn to accept.
And when you start to believe those lies he said ,
you will find out there is no one you can trust other than urself.
Some good things fall apart but better things will come by and fall together.
You are the better thing i came across.
SGWD , i love you(:

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Wednesday, October 13, 2010, 10:00 PM
Thanks for everything dearest(:

Dearest , i love you without any reasons (:



Had D&T paper jus now , cannot concentrate lorh . A waste of time to go sch and back lorh , it's like , go there for 15 mins then go home. But after that , CaiMei went to my house. We went to have our chicken rice and banquet (: Went home and use com(: Hahas , we had a lot of fun eh (: but shag the whole day coz' of someone:'( On phoned with Charmaine afterwards. She comforted me and all. Then yay! He asked me to call him , lika finally. ~ Then we apologised to each other and now we okay alr(:Love him much much . Good luck for ur exams uh(: love die you<3>

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12:09 PM
I'm sorriiiiieeeee~

SeanGohWeiDe , please forgive me~


SeanGohWeiDe , ystd when you pm me , my mum was behind the com , she asked me why i kept talking to you and all . Then she like suspect you and me so i kept asking you bout that -insertname- thingy , i dun wan her to know that me and you. i didn't do it on purpose. I also not coz' of Shazelind then neglect you.. I really not coz of her. then when i came out from my room , i was about reply you then MY MUM OFF THE COM . Then she angry. Please dun be angry with me, if even you're angry with me , i dunno wad to do :( I really really miss you and really regret wad i did. IF you give me a chance to rewind the time , i will keep talking to you , i wun neglect you anymore. I'm sorry. Please. I cannot afford to lose you :( I really can't. I'm not toying you. Seriously , I'm not.. :(I sumpa. I serious. But then this time , i know it's all my fault. I'm sorry. I dunno wad i can do or wad i can say , but really i'm sorry , please dun be angry again please , i beg you.. I know you very dulan , i know it's all my fault ,i know . Please forgive me . Please~ I dunnno if you're hurt , if you are , please give me a chance , i know it's all my fault , give me a chance to explain. I know it's ALL my fault, it's nth to do with you:'( I'm very sorry , please please give me a chance to explain everything:"( I promise , i wun like that anymore.. If now you dun talk to me , i duno wad i will do . Now , i very scared. I jus need you by my side yet 14:44 , we ended the call. I asked if you're angry , you say no and you will call me back later but will you? I jus hope i can have a chance to explain...

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Tuesday, October 12, 2010, 10:18 AM
-irritated-

Everything happens for a reason , the reason is to learn from ur mistakes and i will learn from mine too


Back here posting. Had art & math paper one on 11/10/2010 , didn't manage to finish :(
haizxc. Nvmnvm , ystd , kept talking o nthe phone and sleeping. Wahlao , like pig sia. Like some no use person. Sian nah , i finding something that can occupies me...
Had Geography paper jus now. Cannot concentrate! My heart pumped damn fast. Went to settle some things with Charmaine , Sean , Vanny and guys . Thanks people for helping. Love ya loads loads :DJus came home and got story to share:D



Once upon a time , there is a guy named TYH and a girl named CTSX. CTSX cannot get over her ex which is JYYJ . TYH kinda fond of the girl and say wanna walk her through , then slowly , the girl started falling for TYH but not forgetting her ex completely. CTSX made a blog for JYYJ , say that she can't forget him and all . Then , after ard 15 days after she posted that blog , she told TYH . TYH was angry and CTSX went to please him and all. Then after a few days , they were back to normal . Then TYH's friend ask CTSX to write a letter for him as CTSX is going overseas , his friend say that she wil also write for her . After that CTSX as promised wrote it but TYH's friend didn't. CTSX passed the letter to one of TYH's friend and ask her to pass it to TYH's friend , she went to read it with her bestie and her bestie went to tell TYH.TYH was frustrated with everything . And when CTSX went to Cambodia, she crushed on a guy that is also TYH's friend based on his looks. And the crush went away after a few days.Then TYH also knows bout this. CTSX talked it out with TYH , explained to him and TYH take it as nth have happened before coz' he accepted CTSX 's explaination . Then , CTSX and TYH was progressing great without any quarrels until one day , TYH tell CTSX "i'm tired of you , i need to give up on you , and i've fallen for other girls." , so on .. Then CTSX cried like hell , she called her bestie CYSY and cried it out. After awhile she was alright . TYH still talks on the phone with CTSX everyday . CTSX tried salvaging the r/s but when CTSX ask about the girl , there will be stories from TYH . TYH almost everyday scold CTSX for being irritating and whenever CTSX is upset or wadsoever , she cannot show it to TYH , she have to keep it from TYH and fake a smile/laugh . TYH didn't noticed at all , then SGWD came across , treated CTSX very nice and even cheer her up without CTSX telling SGWD . SGWD is the only reason that CTSX smile and laugh . They started to talk on the phone nightly.:D Then TYH asked CTSX "Who do you love?" Then CTSX say " not you anymore" . Then TYH came back and say "I'm waiting for exams to end , ILOVEYOU . My lie suck , whenever you ask bout the girl , i will say she's offline." Wahlao , like CTSX will know that TYH is faking. Then SGWD and CTSX fall for each other . Then one of TYH's friend was very dulan CTSX treat TYH lidat. Then there talk a lot , it's CTSX and TYH's thing , why TYH didn't even say anything yet she wans to say so much . The girl dun even know the whole story and there talk cock! She freakingly say that CTSX act kelian you know? She even say she's a xiao mei mei that dunno anything and need to her teach . It's like CTSX got teacher to teach her , no need a girl like her to teach:D CTSX had a chat with that girl in the canteen and she kept saying "so?" HAHAs , then everyone know she got nth to say! HAHAHAHAHA. Anyways , it's not TYH's fault , it's hers. It's like ppl problem then she come in talk so much. TYH nv even say anything liao then she there bark bark bark. Then she keep saying "so? , so? , so?" means she nth to say lah. Aiyohs, if she nth to say then jus say only , we will be very glad to hear that she have nth to say(: HAHAHHAHA.

This story's names are in short as i dun wan everybody to know them:D


SeanGohWeiDe, Thanks for everything , if it's not you , i will be humiliated without any justice. Thanks for helping me to speak out and bring ur friends down to help me settle all those things when you can dun even give a damn bout this matter and see me get humiliated. You chose to helped me and listen me out ystd when you got smth important , i wonder wad happened ystd.:P Argg . I wanna talk to you now. I veri bored and most importantly , I miss you! I dunno why , jus now when you came very close to me , i have the urge to hug you very tightly.I really very scared jus now. I jus wish you will hold my cold hands and hug me tight. And also thanks for being there during the "coldest winter" , when i was sad and all you were with me ,thanks for everything . And Sowwieee for all the troubles.:( Love you truck loads.

CharmaineYongSzeYah , thanks for everything , i know you are caught in the middle . Really very sorry . I dun mean to insult her till like this in this post but i really very fked up by her siah . No point getting so worked up , i dun wan get wrinkles. I'm really very sorry bout me and her de thing , i didn't mean to make it like that and make you caught in the middle. Jus hope ur friendship with her wun change :D Dun coz' of me lose ur friend(:I dun wan you to be lidat. But anyways , thanks and sorry uh(: love ya!

Vanny and friends , thanks for standing on my side on the account of Sean(:

-insert name-, I dun need you to teach lah . I dun need a girl who is not virgin , unreasonable , attitude suck , call ppl "slut , bitch and hongster" ,a girl who only side the other party when they dunno the story. Aiyohs. Who need this kinda person teach sia. I then dun wan be like her. eeyer , climb DOG hole one. Eeeeeeeeee , i dun wan a dog to teach me how to be dog. i wanna be a human not a dog.. -UNCIVILISED- Vanny also say " Jus now you should jus totally ask her to kneel down and say sorry lorh , she dares to climb dog hole alr , this kneel down thing should be nth to her." I was like ' okay..but is my laopo's friend leh ." aiyahs. This matter alr sua , if you dun cross my path , i wun cross urs too. I ponder why someone can say til llike she's not in the wrong at all when she actually come and care so muchhhhh!


This post is freakingly long! Still very dulan. Sian nah . hahas. Thanks everyone !:D I know this post is boring-.- This post about her seriously jus polluted my whole blog:'( But this story is damn interesting that i've to share..

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Saturday, October 9, 2010, 10:52 AM
Dedicated to SeanGohWeiDe♥

You're on mind every single second , every single minute. I yearn for you whenever you ain't with me.

You know my past, you know wad's happening. I know you start to be a little shaken , there will be a lot more we are gonna go through , if you cannot take it , it's okay , it's no too late to back off. Dun wait till i sink deeper for you then you leave me. You should know the feeling.. If you cannot accept my past, see , told you form the very beginning i'm not a good girl. Heard all the rumours right? "I'm a hongster , i bitch , a slut , better dun get too close with me. " That's wad a lot of people say , it's ur choice if you wanna believe me or believe those people. They dunno the whole story and start saying wad they hear. Even those who dunno me, nv speak to me one also say . COZ' OF RUMOURS MAH! It's really up to you to trust me or not...

I sumpa wadever i say here is true if not i will have a terrible death. This time , i will really be true. I wun play anymore. I promise you . I wanna settle down like last time when i'm with my ex. And you're the guy who made me forget Jacob(my ex) , maybe not completely now but time will prove everything.. I dun wish to lose you , really.. If we have the trust in each other , we wun be so easily defeated. Last time after Jacob and i broke , any male to come across that flirts with me , i will flirt back lorh . But now , i wun . I swear ,i promise you .. It's all the past , i really dun wish to bring up the past coz' it's all over. i wanna start anew with you but no one else.. I alr accept you for who you are , you dun have to change for me. But will you accept me for who i am now and not care bout the past? Will you?

I believe it's hard to trust a girl who is like that ,
I believe there's trust between us.
I believe you will stay by my side.
I believe you are the person i need.
I believe you're the person who let me forget Jacob.
Please dun leave me , i beg you.....

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Friday, October 8, 2010, 7:37 PM
I gotta be strong


I gotta be strong , since that was the decision i made , i decide to tell the truth so i have to bear the consequences .
Another bad day , had literature and science test , aiyahs. Prepare to fail lah. Went for lunch with Charmaine. We met her brother and 2 of his brother's friend. We had fun , thanks for making me smile. (; I Guess today no one notice that i'm unhappy . My acting was great isn't it? Obviously , i wasn't happy. Okay , shan't elaborate . Then someone break his promise , that make me more ... i dunno how to say lahs.. Then went to blueroom , miss ang let us off ealier . Hahas , come home use come until now. Then jus now got a person call me hongster and b!tch , wahlao eh , feel so insulted canzxc? She dun even know the whole story lorh . She only like side him? okayokay , everything i wrong.Charmaine jus called and hanged up.(:
Charmaine and Charmaine's mummy , thanks for comforting me when i really feel so helpless and dunno wad to do . Thanks a lot a lot. I will not take the comment too harshly(: Thanks(:
It's jus another day that hurts.
Sometimes , i really wish mummy aborted me.
Sometimes , i really wish i wun be in this world.
So that i wwun cause so much trouble.
So that i wun cause so much unhappiness...
Faking a smile will help(:
I believe it will...

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Thursday, October 7, 2010, 4:04 PM
i need to live for myself...

It's better if tears always fill my eyes and blind myself so that i wun see how much you have changed after everything happened.

Today's math and history paper was hard , i think mostly coz' i didn't study much . Tmr's will be literature and science . Arrggghhh , i will go crazy . I'm going sotsot alr.Had papers , then went up to 4th level to wait for my Charmaine dearrr. Hahas , i sound so freaking les. Jus had tuition . Okay , it suck! I dun like the tuition teacher. So freaking stupid!-.- Gonna have my lunch and off to study (: Good luck for EOY everyone:D Love you guys(:

Claire , start living for urself and not others , dun bother wad others say bout you , wadever nasty things they say without knowing the reasons behind everything that you did. I believe u can stop all this from being in ur head , i believe u can dun let all this affect you . Concentrate on ur exams lah! (: You can do it!:D


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Tuesday, October 5, 2010, 8:12 PM
EXAMS:"(


i guess everyone is lidat bah):


Exams start today :( Everything jus suck . This year is fast. After exams , it will be post exam day all those then holidays. I can't wait for holidays but i jus dun wan this year to end so fast. I'm afraid of next year , afraid of everything. I dun wan the history to repeat . I miss being a P6 . I think 6 faith is the best^^ This year , i have been through a lot . And see a bit of the ugliness of the world. I dun like this. I shall go do my revision , no more time! Argggghhhh ! Tmr is ENglish . Good luck everyone~! All the best(:

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7:40 PM
Dedicated to DylanNgZhengKai Korkor(:

A true friend will treat me like how you do(:


Dylan , to be honest , sometimes i'm not in the mood , so i think that you're annoying but slowly , you were by my side to care for me like i'm ur real blood sister.Sometimes , i really wanna concentrate yet you're complaining bout you know the senior. Ahem ahem. HAHAs. But when i talk to Jingminnie , you will remind me to focus and stop talking. I will be like so freaking frustrsated , then i will say "wait wait wait.." I'm like thinking , if you weren't here ,it will be so freakingly QUIET. Then sometimes when i not in the mood , i vent my anger on you . I'm sorry. I dunno how to describe my feeling.. Confused . HAHAs . Dylan uh dylan , without you , JIngminnie and i de world like lost smth lidat , like SUDDENLY very quiet (: Come back soon (;
Loooooovvvvvvveeeeeessssssssssssssssssss

I know you;re like kinda sick now. Get well soon , 1e4 miss you!

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Saturday, October 2, 2010, 3:06 PM
sick:(

Note-ing down the feelings from my heart , telling myself , i will be fine , i will know everything one day .
This few weeks are horrible , studying after studying , misunderstandings after misunderstandings , this is so ... I can't take it anymore): Currently down with flu . cough and fever . Jus now , coz' tuition teacher came then jie ask " Why dun wan tuition?!" Then , i irritated lah , wahlao eh . Ppl here sick , dunno how to talk properly arhs? You tired ,ppl not tired meh? Then i shout back lorh "you touch my fore head lah!" wahlao! irritated by everything i';m having now , i jus hate ppl throwing their temper at me! Exams starts in 3 days time. Claire , stop slacking , rest well and do ur work!!!I'm so tired of everything , jus wondering when will i break down..

I jus wan somebody who is worth caring for .
I jus need someone who will always be there for me.
I jus wan someone who can listen and take all the shit i give that person.
If that person can take all this ,
he will be the one going through everything with me.

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