babyy...

Laogong.. I wanna give up, I really wann to.. Yet, pathetically, I'm here now crying without you. Those forgotten promises. Those pain you gave me is really unbearable, I tried, I tried not to care about you so much alrd. But, I can't. I kept giving you chances again and again, yet you seemed to take it for granted. In the past, we were doing fine. And, I dunno why, from 20.03.2011, you started treating me colder and colder. I thought you were change, I gave you more than what I should. I forgive you like hell. But now, we quarrel, you scold me "ccb, smlj, knn". You dun treat me like that in the past. You changed, so much. I had enough, there's always a limit to my tolerance. I'm so tired, so drained. Whenever I need a friend, I dunno who to turn to.. When I need you, where are you? You're out there with your friends playing? How about me? hah! At home crying like shit, like fuck, hoping just for your text, your call. Now, quarreling like fuck. I'm so tired of all this shit. I .. I wanna end my life. I feel so meaningless. I'm always living for th sake that I love someone. I've no aim, I've nothing, I only have you yet you're treating me like ... Toy? When you dun have your friends, you come and look for me. When you have them, I'm chunked aside. I've never ever treat you like that before. Do I really deserve all this? I tried to smile, but I'm not genuinely happy. I dun wann you to be hurt or what again, whenever you're outside, I'm so worried. Worried that one day I can't see you again, worried that something happen to you and I dunno about it. I find myself so stupid for caring so much for a person. But.. I'm tired. Maybe you deserve better. All I do is only to make you lose all your friends, to make you dulan. Maybe, you'll be able to find a better girl than me.. It's all my heartfelt words. I'm so sorry about everything. I love you..