Our love will never have an ending.
This week have been the worst for me in school, luckily it ended. I failed FOUR subjects! I feel likea failure. I'm so afraid that i'll faill again. I cannot retain:( And, I haven't been in the right mood. Quarreled with sisters, boyf. The most important 2 person:( Haiyohhh, i dunno nahh, headache whole week also:( Dunno what's wrond with me also:( Hais. Anyways, studying is getting harder and I've to buck up! I can't be slacking around like how i were the past 3 months if not I'll fail like shit! Hmm, today have been a boring day for me, I hope it'll be better soonnnnn~! I need my friends to go out with me, be it to study or to play!
Caimeibaby, I'll make time for all. Also, thanks for forgiving me and being sucha great sista who's always always by my side caring for me, loving me, correcting me when you know i did mitakes. I know it's hard on you this days yet you perservered, i hope you'll be better. No matter what i did, deepdeepdeep down, I love you a lot. I know I did things that betrayed you, that made you angry but nevertheless, you still love me(: Thanks for everything babe, thanks for being there for me when you know i needed you the most.
CharmaineLaopo, Thanks my dearest laopo, when you know i needed someone, you'll be the first who text me and be the first who cares and gives me advices. I really love you(: Those things you did for me is really like alot alot alot, countless laa(: HAHHAHA(:
QiHanLaoGong, I'm sorry for everything that happened but then, I'm so disappointed by ur actions today.. I'm jealous about everything. I need you but where are you. Where are all our promises? Are they just words? Just lies? I thought I'll ve happy with the presence of you but I ended with much hurt and feeling unloved. You said I'm ur laopo, but then, when i need you, you went to the other girl, what is this seriously. I need you, i really do.. The most pathetic way to comfort myself was, that girl is only your daughter, nothing will come out of them, he still love me, he has me in his heart. You made me feel insecure, you made me feel unloved. And, sometimes the things you said, are just words. I feel unloved. It's unlike those days we haven't get together. Yes, i got the status with you as what I wanted. But, everything seemed so painful now. Those quarrels so on. I dun think we're even happy. You started doubting on me, just like how i doubt on you. Just because we didn't meet as often as last time? Hais, it's hurting so much. I start to think you're taking me for granted, everyone says I treat you very nice, yeahh, I gave my best to you. I really did, but i dun think you felt it horh? It's all my fault for causing everything. I hate myself. I'm so sorry my dear. I love you and i promise, I'll try to be more positive. Ai si ni, forever. I know at this point of time i shouldn't quarrel with you. I should have love you. I should have care for you more, i know it's all my fault. I know I shouldn't be so ... unreasonable? Sorry deardearr.
RachaelDaughter, Seriously, you get on my nerves, you should know what i meant. I dun like, you know, yet you did it.
Handsomes and Babes, Thanks for caring for me uhh(: I'll be there when you all need me too(: Just text ne or ring me up, I'll be there. I love you all(:
I'm not a perfect girl, I need love and care just like how other girls does. I know I ain't the best but I'm always striving to be one, for the sake of you. I hide my tears well in order not to let you worry. I put on a smile whenever I know I have to be strong 'cause you need me. I've to act as if nothing have happened when deep inside I know I'm not alright. I'll never leave when I know you need me. Those words I said is not just for those good times, it's for our future, those bad times we may encounter. You always have me by ur side, through all those good and bad times.
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