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TanSzeXuanClaire.
17061997 Attatched to CharmaineYongSzeYa Loved by Caimei♥, Jessel, Charmaine, Fion, SweeKee, Jingmin, Shayne and a lot a lot:P currently studying in Zhenghua Sec Wants : freedom! My Sisters!♥ A simple life. Love me if not leave me and stop the hurt you're giving me(: love my friends as much as they love me. Love is like a rainbow , if a person and stay by ur side and love you , care for you and go through everything with you and accept wadever shit you gave that person.That person wil be the one there for you when you need someone the most and cherish that person because you will never know when that person is gonna leave you♥."
CharmaineYongSzeYah
Attatched to CharmaineYongSzeYah♥ 07041995 Anniversary on 7th. Married to her on 07062010♥ Whenever we have anything we dun wanna share or dun dare to share with others, we will turn to each other. We always have the trust in each other and understands each other's feelings well. We understand each other well and know why we do certain things in order not to get any hurt. We cherish each other, we will always lend a shoulder to each other
LimCaiMei
Baby Girl♥ 30061997 We always tell each other our deep dark secret to each other and keep those secrets well , we promise not to reveal anything out (: We always love each other and promise that we wun be apart no matter what happens(: We always confide into each other when you dun dare to tell others what we think . We always comment on each otehr when we think that we ain't doing the right thing . I love you♥
OliviaHauXinYun
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Came from this girl♥ 27051997 Serangoon Sec She gave birth to me,she always give me a big big scolding from her whenever i do smth wrong.. I always share my things with her . Although we ain't as close as last time but i still love her ,I will always cherish her , she treats me like her own♥ I will always lend a listening ear to her whenever she needs someone to turn to♥
ChuSweeKee
Sista(; 28021997 She's hyper, i knew her from the first day of sec sch, we share secrets and keep it to ourselves. We have fun together , we laugh together , we play together and had a lot fo our first times together . She's being loved by Jingminnie and me♥
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Saturday, August 28, 2010, 1:28 PM
This freaking whole week freak me out!
.jpg) Listen to my heart , my heart tells me , you love me a lot but you're giving up on me because smth happen behind yet you aren't gonna tell anyone. Keeping it to urself , bear all the pain uself... This whole week , although it's a slcking week , i'm busy for this and that . I'm afriad of this and that too. I finally know the feeling of being hate by sec 3s , it's so freaking scary when they you their eyes of hatred to look at me but nvm , it's all my fault. This week , nth much happened , actually very tiring , got flu , cough and slight dizzy , that's why i very hot-tempered nowadays... I'm sorry , everyone . Being high is the only thing i wanna do now to forget everything. Thanks to SweeKee , JingMin , Dylan and everyone who make my day a little happier and thanks for being such great friends , stayed by me and comforted me in any circumstances. Today , nth much happened , woke up at 8 plus. I tot today got tuition until teacher call and say that there's no tuition. Wahlao , make me wake up so freakingly early. Then use com till 12 , wen to level 9 to see if he's there yet he isn't , i ask Jingminnie to sms him , he say he's not coming . I self comforted myself. Then i msg him using facebook , i asked him why . He say he wanna start a new life without girlfriends and ask me to take care of myself.. This proves he still love , he told yh to take care of me coz' he can't , he lost his parents. :( Why why , i jus wan him only him. Then i nv eat dinner , no apetite.:( Sleep sleep sleeep , run away from reality. When Dylan call , i got no mood , short reply him... :( Labels: i love you Tuesday, August 24, 2010, 6:35 PM
Specially For Piggy.
.jpg) I made a mistake , maybe i shouldn't have know you and make u fall for me. Maybe i jus can't , can't forget the past. It's my fault for everything. I gave you so much to rmb , i made u happy and fly to the sky yet throw you down from there. See , i'm vicious girl , people that mix with me will turn out good. I promise you , in 6 months time , i wun stead or fall for any guys but you , i wan you to find a better girl than me. I dun wan you to shed tears for me , i dun wan you to get so affected coz' of me , i dun wan you to get hurt further. A guy like you is impossible to find but know smth , a girl like me , you can find it everywhere. I know u shed a lot of tears for me . But think , is it worth? The ans is no . I know you love me a lot , you dote on me a lot , seriously i can feel it. I've been asking myself , have i been doing the right thing? I found out a few days back when i was lying on my bed , i was asking myself . Do i love you or do i love "him"? Does "he" means more to me or do you mean more to me? The ans is i love you , i can't get him off my mind . You mean more to me but if he treats me nice then .... The past few days haven been chatting on the phone with you . Although i feel super duper weird , i tried to control myself , i told myself , i cannot call you . I cannot let you sink deeper coz' i'm gonna hurt you . I cannot be so selfish . I dunno when can i forget him then i treat you liddat. I dun wan you to be more hurt than now , you're alr very hurt. I saw u everyday without fail now , i wanna see you yet i dun wan you to see me coz' i dun wan you to rmb those nasty things i said to you ystd. It's so freaking painful canzxc? I didn't mean to do it but i did it. I wan you to forget about this slut here. Live for urself , love urself more than anything , be yourself. Please please please , dun ever try to hurt urself coz' of this slut.. I said "my love for you is reducing" is fake , i jus dun wan you to love me me so much .. I dun wan , i dun wan ur heart is with me but my mind still contains someone else. I dun wan , i dun like , silly you , love urself more. Dun love me so much anymore coz' a slut like me is not worth. You're the one who is there for me. I hate myself for not doing that . I feel so lost , i feel that i've lost everything . It's me who have lost you , it's me who make you so sad , it's me who gave up on a guy that i'll never find. Lastly , i wish you all the best and i hope you can find a better girl . Trust me , you can do it. Jiayou for ur guitar thingy this sat . Jiayous for ur EOY and everything. Mus work hard horh , dun be so lazy. One more thing , ur bao bei always loves you . You will always be my piggy. Labels: i love you Wednesday, August 18, 2010, 9:24 PM
It's a sad day~
.jpg) Dun love someone so much coz' that person is gonna leave you anytime , he will never be by ur side anymore...Ystd , lessoned and all , aiyahs , no mood. Then a lot of unhappiness happened:( Then ... blah blah. I dun feel like saying. Then Chinese oral. Home-d , then usual routine. Today , met Cai mei and Felicia at ramp again , chit chat w them:D Then went up to 2nd level to spite Zake , lame lah hor. But we saw steed scolding him. I can seee Cai Mei heart pain but then not saying it out. That kian keong lied to me , kenneth told me derh. I hear alr, i ji tao shed tears. Silly me , wad am i doing over such small issue. Then i wanna go toilet that time saw miss ang then run back to my class . LOL. Then assembly-ed , lesson-ed. Detention. Sean was soo sweet , he ask me why i so shag . I say i saw "him" Then he say "nvm derh lah." Then i say " tmr got D & T test!!:(" Then he say " I believe you can do it coz' you're Claire. You can do it , dun worry so much . " He said this , so sweet right? But then , kenna scold by Zake coz' i tell teh teacher Sean in the toilet. Lame lah. Home-d , eat at ah ma's house. Use com. Sian lah. Labels: i love you. Monday, August 16, 2010, 9:56 PM
i dunno why...
 Coz' I always hold onto things/person tightly without having the idea to let go of that person...Went sch as usual.. Went Cai mei and Felicia then sat down at the ramp there,wahlao eh then the Kian Keong , dunno wad's is his problem. Aim me sia. He tried to spit saliva down from 2nd level. Kns lah. Lessoned as usual. Nth much happened , was half-asleep and half-awake. Then Kian keong , Shaun , Kenneth , Lawerence and Kok Zhong walked past my class as usual. Call me "shot kia" , for wad ? I really dunno sia.:( Then after they walked past , the worst thing is Jeremy and jie ke bi walked past my class! Serously, i hope he jus stop all his crap lah . Then yu heng and friends walked past , di siao us like hell. LOL. Then wanted to go blue room lerh , saw miss ang at the spiral staircase , faster turned and walk back to my class ,i guai guai clip my hair up , LOL. Then on the way met Chan Hui , he cut his hair! HAHAHA , so funny. Then headed to blueroom , was miss ang , told her urgently that i need to have test . Then i saw Yu heng ! HAHA , he tell me he go home. Wah , i can't find my classroom sia. I feel so helpless. Then , went up to the classroom we had our chinese last time. Found them . I WASN'T THE LAST! Wahlao , i faster run here and there like siao zhar bo. Did Chinese CA2 , confirm fail , i dunno how to do:'( Then netball , yay , i THINK i improved. Then home-d , use com , go ah ma's house and home-d then now blogging lorh. Lame lah this post. LOL. I jus hope you wun walk past my class again , i hope i wun see you again , i dun like the feeling of being reminded of the past. People here trying to forget you then you there dun wan me to forget you . Wad's ur problem lah. I dun wan my heart to have another person when i alr told someone i love him and i know he loves me with wholeheartedly , i dun wish to disappoint him again and again . I dun wish to see him hurt again and again. He's innocent. If you're hurting me , when i'm hurt , he will also be hurt. I dunno why whenever i wanna forget you , you jus dun wanna let do it. So that you will have more ppl like you can hao lian isit? Seriously , I've nv hate you beforew and i dun wanna hate you , you understand? We have those memories ,it will always be in my mind so please dun destroy all this you gave me..I dun wish to fall apart again because of you. I'm sick and tired of crying days and nights over you .I'm tired of all the nonscence you gave me. Stop doing all these will you... Everything will be better if i can have the time machine , i rewind time and change everything , i would rather not to know them so that i wun be hurt again and again cos of you all . I'm really really very tired. Tell me how , tell me wad can i do to change. I'm jus smth that you used and throw away isn't it? When you all need me , come and find me cos u all know i will surely help , when you all dun need me , you all jus throw me aside. Please lah , i'm not a machine that works for you all. I'm a human being that have feelings , i need love and care too . Stop jus treating me as a machine that works for you all , will you? I'm really very tired. You all in troubl , i help without wanting you all de "thankyou" . I jus hope u all can treat me a little bit better. Jus a little bit , even if it's jus a little bit , i can feel it... Everything will be better if i can change the past... Saturday, August 14, 2010, 10:48 PM
Silly me
 Ystd , went to sch as usual. Lesson-ed .Went for lunch with charmaine! Yay! Damn fun derh lorh , sadthat i'm without sweekee. Detention-ed with Charmaine , we talk and do work , we very guai de hor.But i kept talking , hahahaha. Then home-d , i saw the history , the one that i chat with SOMEONE , he said that ppl start disliking me. I duno why also . He also say he dunno. Wth . Wahlao eh. Today , talked to piggy as usual then bath and all . Then tuition-ed , yay , learn smth , so happiiieee for myself . LOL. Quarreled with Zake , pissed ttm. I dislike you too! I hurt myself cos u say i break u and Caimei , is caimei that makes me gui;ty not you coz' i found out you hong my friends and my gans. I hate it. Then dinner at ah ma's house as usual then home-d to use com. Then chat with my friends:D 12:56 AM
I criedd..
 I found out i lost you all but i dunno why . I love you all , i swear. But does you all too?Was a kinda bad day. Haizxc , i dunno lah . Dun feel like posting. Byyeeee. Labels: i love you Thursday, August 12, 2010, 11:01 PM
Suck....
 Coz' no one is perfect... school-ed as usual then That piggy horh , talk to me , scare die me lah. Then lesson-ed , then went to report lorh. Sian lah. Then peer turtoring ,i was the fastest lorh , tutor so slow:X hehehe^^I sooooo mean horh. I'm such a meanie right? Okay , i got nth to write. I suck lah:P Then report before going to netball , on the way saw piggy and CHANHUI . HAHAHHA , lame lah me. Then training was fun! thenthenthen ,i went bak to blue room ,sat and talked to Mr Chandra then miss ang came to release me . Then dinner-ed and call piggy! I'm doneeeee , byebye:D Ai ni men:D Labels: i love you. Wednesday, August 11, 2010, 9:45 PM
AHHHH , i'm getting FATTER!
 Coz' somethings are meant to be the past , meant to be smth i should on think of not dwell on... Went to sch after 5 days break. *yawnyawn* . Lesson-ed as usual . Mis Angella is bak , we will miss mr Tan , our DA JING ZHI!:"( Sad die me. Then dentention-ed. We sat on the floor coz' raining. Sit until my butt pain sia. wahlao eh , i do my work till so engross , somemore really engross one. Then Kenneth and Kian Keong going to sleep like that . They got released first. Wth, next time i mus act like i gonna sleep then miss ang will release me first lorh . Wth lah . Not fair...Miss ang Li Jun , i dun like you. Okay , i shall end my post here and talk to my piggy , he's fallling asleep! Aiyohs , tired then go sleep lah:D Labels: i love you. Tuesday, August 10, 2010, 7:43 PM
Rotted at home the whole day.
 Coz' a heart that matches ur heart is hard to find.Rotted at home the whole day , bored die me. Watch tv , sleep , call piggy. Daily routine lah hor. Haizxc , nth much to write also. Okay , ystd night , went to my mum's boss's house to have a bbq , damn long nv see haoping , wenmin and su min. Haoping changed alot , more socialable. LOL. Then blah blah . Played majong and all. Okays, had a nice day ystd with them. but then horh , me and haoping damn paiseh lorh. Coz' I confess so naturally when they ask if i liike him before. I'm like yes? OMGOMG ,when did i become soooo direct sia. Not like a girl lorh. WTHHH. Wad's wrong with claire? then wenmin and sumin all there laughing ,they say our expression very funy. WTH! Coz' we playing majong and we sat opp each other , then they keep asking , u wanna change place with me ? So that i wun be facing him .. Make me paiseh only. Wenmin say Haoping blished , ohya , he did. AHHHHHH , claire tan uh claire tan , u ...I dunno wad to say sia. Okay , i shall end here. BYEEEEEE:D Labels: i love you. Monday, August 9, 2010, 4:46 PM
National Day!
Happy 45th Birthday Singapore! May Singapore be peaceful forever!  Usually we dun treasure wad we have until we've lost it. Rotted at home the whole day . Woke up at 10 liddat then use com. Brush teeth and all . Blahblahblah.Haven complete wad i ought i should do today. Epic failer lah claire! Then i heard that mummy is drunk. HAHAHA, so funny. LOL , she still sleeping now. Like pig sia her. She say she still feel as if she's drunk.Haizxc ,i'm bored. Later going to my mum's boss's house. Gonna put make-up to conver ALL my pimples ,i guess.. Okay , i dunno wad to write. Byebye peepos:D I'm bored. Rotting in progress.. 1% 2%3%4%5%............ Labels: Emogirlzxc. Sunday, August 8, 2010, 11:00 PM
Boring day..
 Today is jus so bored that i play with myself. Went to hougang for breakfast with my family:D Wahlao , sat at the coffee shop till my buttok pain. 3 to 4 hours sia. If every customer is like my family then the while coffee shop fold down lerh lorh. LOL , then packed my clothes. From hougang pack till bp , i dunno when can i pack ALL my clothes into my cupboard.I trying my best best best. Haizxc. So ma fan! Then eat at Greenridge lorh , then call Piggy. Now still talking to him(: Labels: Iloveyou(: 1:18 AM
Wonderful day!
 It have been a relaxing but tired day.. Haizxc. Woke up , use com. Then pack my file. Wahlao eh , my file damn many things can? Only managed to pack finish my eng file. I suck but i tired mah. I'm gonna lose a lot of blood this few days. Please dun agitate me coz' i really will get agitated easily and please be tolerant towards my temper this week yea? Sorry for that too. Arggg . Then went for dinner at my aunt's condo warren . Ah ma's birthday mah . Unable to talk to my piggy coz ' i went out. I went to omegle while in cousin's house. it's fun though sometimes DISGUSTING . Haizxc. I miss you Piggy , I'm sorry . Recently have been busy with my friends and all. Conselling them , pei-ing them , blahblahblah. Didn't spend much time talking to you. Today having acting class, wun be able to talk to you coz' aunt's at home:'( . I know you'll miss me but dun miss me too much yea? I'll miss you too. Olivia , i dunno if u still likes green. I hope it's not too late to save our friendship , u once said our friendship will never end , i hope it's true. you mean a lot to me. I once made u disappointed and i once neglected you. I promise i wun be like that again jus coz' of a guy. Confide into me if u wan , i know T have been affecting you really a lot. I know he's the first guy u are so serious. You cry for him dunno how man tons of times lerh lorh. Cheerup babe. You got ur friends behind you. Labels: i love you Saturday, August 7, 2010, 1:06 AM
Dedicated to Piggy
 Piggy , i've told u the truth . You chose to accept it and love me even more. I dun wan you to love me so much . Seriously , a girl who have lost trust and feel lost in love will nv give you happiness. She's jus a imperfect girl who revolves again guys and doesn't wanna settle down and love someone again coz ' she dun believe wad's love. You told me to give u a chance.But i nv trust myself that my heart will not change and if i will love you faithfully . I dun wanna hurt such a nice and perfect guy like you , I'm not worth such a nice guy like you. I dun deserve you too. I told myself " since i've chosen piggy and forget Jacob , i wshould love him wholeheartedly and not think about anyone else. Keeping everything to myself ,not letting you know anything." Slowly, as u love me more , i found out , it's so hard to keep everything to myself . i found out it's so unfair to u . You love me so much yet i ... I feel guilty about it. I know you will be hurt. It's not too late to regret. You said u dun mind but then i mind u being hurt by me ,i dun like the feeling of being hurt yet i'm hurting you now. You smiled ,you laugh because of me. But you get hurt , you shed tears and you cry coz' of me too . Is it worth it? No , it's not kay? A girl like me is jus a cheap toy for guys to play around , they like to play with me and let me get hurt whenever i get serious with them. I believe u aren't this kinda person . Your love towards ur baobei will never chaneg , it's hard for u to forget me coz' forgeting someone is to rmb someone you've never met. But then , I wun give you happiness , you ask urself , how much hurt i've gave you since we met. Dun cry for such a girl coz' she's not worth you. Iloveyou. It's not too late.Labels: Iloveyou. Friday, August 6, 2010, 10:11 PM
Haizxc..
 This refers to someone:( I dun wish to rmb nor do i wanna forget.Today suck . Went to scha s usual then got performance. Chan hui , u did a great job:D Then got dunno wad shittass performance. Roport to blue room afterwards. Haizxc , headache and sleepy the whole day , i dunno why . Sleep sleep sleep then ronald called. Talk for a while... Blahblahblah. Then went for dinner. Piggy , sorry for everything. Thursday, August 5, 2010, 10:39 PM
Haizxc
 Lazy to post recently. Sian ttm , today ... I dunno why . this week , i damn sleepy sia. Then lesson-ed as usual but time past fast:D Then math level test , i dunno how to do sia. I know i suck , i din even study lorh:"( I'm tired~ Both physically and mentaly tired. Then , went for netball , actually didn't wanna go but then ,i dunno why , jus go lorh. First time i sweat so much sia. LOL. First time i enjoy netball so much too. Thanks to Fion. I love her ttm. She's the only senior netballer who have patience with me:D Labels: i'm tired~ Tuesday, August 3, 2010, 6:58 PM
It's all a dream .
 I could have woke up from the dream that happened ystd. Somehow today , i dunno why , i kept thinking of the hug but i know it's jus a crush like he's my idol! Piggy will surely be angry if he sees this. Nvm , i should be honest with him:D Today , damn tiring sia. Met piggy and charmaine at the ramp with Xinyi . Tired, lie down there , sianzxc. Then lessoned . Blahblahblah~ Then detention , was release at exacally 6 :D . Called my piggy afterwards. I'm tired~ Labels: i'm tired and i have a crush on him. OMG Monday, August 2, 2010, 9:35 PM
Tiring day
  Left sch early and went for acting.. At mediacorp, I saw kimberly Chia. She very friendly sia. Made a few friends. OMG , i saw Scott. Wthhhh , he acted like he dunno me lorh. So sad for me hor? LOL.Then made some girl friends first , then slowly i act act act , know Zi Jie , the way he look at the girls make us very bu shuang at first but then after talking to him and knowing him more. He's a nice person but of cos , i miss my piggy! LOL leh me. Went to ah gong's house afterwards.Reached home at around 9 then piggy ask me call him . I call lorh. Whoa , very tired recently. Sleeping soon. I miss my piggy<3 Labels: i miss you 12:12 PM
having a mixed feeling now.
 Haizxc.. I feeling scared .. I'm afraid.. I'm i dunno wad feeling lehhh. Die lah. I dun wanna lose this wonderful oppotunity again. I better try my bettest! I dunno why . So inscure feeling... Piggy ah piggy , I need you badly. I miss you endlessly. I love you with my heart. Mauckies. Labels: Emogirlzxc is afraid. |
